Some days are like that, aren’t they?
I mean you’re out of bed for like a total of five minutes and you already wish it were the end of the day and you were crawling back in.
Buddhism explains that this is wishing Boat Rego Stickers our lives away, wishing the moment away. That by wishing our suffering away, we are depriving ourselves of living in the moment. Of living our lives. Of being present.
That immersing ourselves in our suffering, not fighting it, not wishing it to be anything other than what it is, is where we strengthen our spiritual practice. Living in the moment, and not trying to make it something else, should be part of your daily practice. They say meditation is all fine and all, but life, life is where the real spiritual practice is at.
I feel like that when I’m drinking vodka. I never wish the moment were something else. I never fight the moment, and I never try and make it something it isn’t. I am a true reflection of Buddhist philosophy when drunk.
I just need to work on it sober.
I reminded myself not to make my suffering more suffering by exacerbating my suffering by focusing on my suffering as I opened the pile of bills that had accumulated on my kitchen table.
And as I peeled open envelope 45, this one from the motor registry office, I did that double-take thing. Where your brain reads information but doesn’t understand its content. So, in my case, I opened the letter and noticed that my car registration was up for renewal on May 11.
I stared dumbly at it.
But we were in June. Could I honestly have been driving an unregistered car for over a month?
I called Richard.
No answer.
I put the notice into the BILLS TO BE PAID PILE.
(Now a rather hefty look ‘n pile).
Richard I knew had been paying bills; I’d get an email from him with a copy of the mortgage payment. Or a Foxtel-paid email would pop up in my inbox. I had no idea how he’d worked out what needed paying and what didn’t. Perhaps Vodaphone sent him emails? Because one of those Vodaphone paid accounts also arrived in my email inbox from him.
